Lightness in Dark

2018

If Only Dreams May Come

Those Watchful Eyes

Flyover

Hold On

Pink Palms

Be Quiet, Be Still

Dentata Blue

Sleepless, Yellow

Blank Space

Flyover

Looking to the Light

Heavy Bones

Still Tied to what is Necessary

Sleepless Blue

In The City

“Lightness in Dark” is my journey out of Postpartum Depression. I write this description after the fact, and I realize I probably didn't grasp the depths of my depression during that time. New motherhood, for me, was terribly isolating, anxiety-inducing, and just really fucking hard. If you are stuck in a deep, dark well, do you even realize you are there? Do you even comprehend how deep and dark it is? I am reminded of Haruki Murakami's character in "The Wind Up Bird Chronicle" stuck in a dry well, desperately searching for the portal to the other side. The figures in this series are faceless, hunched over, contorted, and barely separate themselves from the background. They are searching for a way out through a web of obligations and expectations. I was inspired to create this series when another artist mother friend offered to show my work in her new gallery, Art Haus. The deadline gave me purpose. The painting made me feel alive again. Painting about the darkness I was feeling inside made space for lightness. And end to this oppressive tunnel of dark. The gold leaf is this light. A tiny sliver of hope to keep moving forward.